Expecting people to be understanding of BPD is essentially asking people to pity you and not to hate you for being a self-centered, manipulative, lying, and destructive psycho bitch. It is asking people to go beyond forgiveness and hold you close even when they know they will get burned.
Expecting people to be understanding of BPD is asking them to care for the most toxic personality in the world.
And most of the time it doesn’t feel fair to expect that kind of sacrifice from anyone. So maybe I’ll just disappear.